eternity

there's less than a year until the 'big' change comes forth, I can't help but feel a bit anxious just waiting until then.

truthfully, i've been long for this change for some time. . 

though more than anything, perhaps. . 

a simple return to Japan would be . . well, just peachy. 

now, why does this feel as if it'll last an eternity before my first adulthood 'change' will come forth. . 

ah, nemui desu. . 

oyasumi nasai

truth

to be honest, this (my main) blog hasn't gained an immense amount of visitors lately, it took off last year in a surge of visitors.

since then, there's been a bit, though it continued readily declining (occasionally with surges bringing back the visitor count). 

i would say that I don't share everything on my mind in this blog, but here's the truth to it all. . 

i do.

at least, depending on the topic and that circumstance, unless stating otherwise, it's somewhere there and just takes deciphering. 

ah, don't laugh but after I wrote that last remark, my laptop crashed and it took about 15 minutes to restart. 

i've had the laptop for many, many years and I bought it alone with money I had saved growing up. I'm actually very grateful for it, as it's been a total of about 5-6 years I've had it now, can't quite recall the exact duration of time it's been.

i do want to purchase a new laptop, but I do in fact want one from a particular brand, in conjunction with further ideas to implement more outlets to speak to you all.

ah, back to what I had mentioned before. .

this blog doesn't get the traffic it use to, perhaps when the time comes that'll change, though it's not a serious issue for me.

my 2nd blog (click here to visit it) has been the traffic source these days, in which I'll review products in full and even give a detailed analysis of what the product consist of.

i've been focusing on that for some time now, especially after my trip to Japan, I bought quite a bit of cosmetics from there (ironically, some were from Korean retail stores located Ikebukuro)

cosmetics are quite nice, having worked k-cosmetic retail for many months too, it was always a pleasant feeling having my regulars come back and tell me about their skin has been "saved" which was all too kind the statement for me.

no no no, thank your precious skin for trying it's absolute best and succeeding, as well yourself for taking care of it and following daily skincare routine(s).

another truth, more than anything in the world right now, I would like to have a リライフ (ah, watch the anime while you're at it) of where I was very recently. 

i miss all of it deeply, though I do wonder what it would have felt like if I had been their with a particular girl, though I haven't met her and to my knowledge she doesn't exist in my realm. 

we'll see soon though, soon enough the リライフ will become a reality, soon. . soon. 
one more area that I wish to address, though this is of my own will, in reference to my previous blog entry (last chance), the end of this particular year will recall the same occurrence that took place many years before too.

i've said it before all too many times, i don't exist for the purpose of playing at friendship, you know.

the time is now 01:27 and I'm quite bed ridden as it is, if it's not too much. . may i request a particular dream tonight?

☆ もういいの　不思議な時を
過ごした　I will try and hope for it ☆