eternity

there's less than a year until the 'big' change comes forth, I can't help but feel a bit anxious just waiting until then.

truthfully, i've been long for this change for some time. . 

though more than anything, perhaps. . 

a simple return to Japan would be . . well, just peachy. 

now, why does this feel as if it'll last an eternity before my first adulthood 'change' will come forth. . 

ah, nemui desu. . 

oyasumi nasai

truth

to be honest, this (my main) blog hasn't gained an immense amount of visitors lately, it took off last year in a surge of visitors.

since then, there's been a bit, though it continued readily declining (occasionally with surges bringing back the visitor count). 

i would say that I don't share everything on my mind in this blog, but here's the truth to it all. . 

i do.

at least, depending on the topic and that circumstance, unless stating otherwise, it's somewhere there and just takes deciphering. 

ah, don't laugh but after I wrote that last remark, my laptop crashed and it took about 15 minutes to restart. 

i've had the laptop for many, many years and I bought it alone with money I had saved growing up. I'm actually very grateful for it, as it's been a total of about 5-6 years I've had it now, can't quite recall the exact duration of time it's been.

i do want to purchase a new laptop, but I do in fact want one from a particular brand, in conjunction with further ideas to implement more outlets to speak to you all.

ah, back to what I had mentioned before. .

this blog doesn't get the traffic it use to, perhaps when the time comes that'll change, though it's not a serious issue for me.

my 2nd blog (click here to visit it) has been the traffic source these days, in which I'll review products in full and even give a detailed analysis of what the product consist of.

i've been focusing on that for some time now, especially after my trip to Japan, I bought quite a bit of cosmetics from there (ironically, some were from Korean retail stores located Ikebukuro)

cosmetics are quite nice, having worked k-cosmetic retail for many months too, it was always a pleasant feeling having my regulars come back and tell me about their skin has been "saved" which was all too kind the statement for me.

no no no, thank your precious skin for trying it's absolute best and succeeding, as well yourself for taking care of it and following daily skincare routine(s).

another truth, more than anything in the world right now, I would like to have a リライフ (ah, watch the anime while you're at it) of where I was very recently. 

i miss all of it deeply, though I do wonder what it would have felt like if I had been their with a particular girl, though I haven't met her and to my knowledge she doesn't exist in my realm. 

we'll see soon though, soon enough the リライフ will become a reality, soon. . soon. 
one more area that I wish to address, though this is of my own will, in reference to my previous blog entry (last chance), the end of this particular year will recall the same occurrence that took place many years before too.

i've said it before all too many times, i don't exist for the purpose of playing at friendship, you know.

the time is now 01:27 and I'm quite bed ridden as it is, if it's not too much. . may i request a particular dream tonight?

☆ もういいの　不思議な時を
過ごした　I will try and hope for it ☆

Last Chance

It's been a while since I've wrote on my main blog, though as many of you know, this is the blog that started it all and even led me to extend to my 2nd blog. 

If you would like to see my 2nd blog of product reviews, click here. I can truly say that blog is all the rave at the moment, gathering a mass of visitors daily from around the world, it's really quite a sight and if you haven't already, please visit it. 

"Last Chance" blog entry begins here: 

With a particular mindset and way of thinking, once a blog is a part of the process then you've got an expanded outlet to venture into deeper thoughts. 

When it comes to chances, it's typically human nature to give too many of them, isn't it? 

We forgive and perhaps forget, only to assure ourselves such an event or similar occurrence won't appear before us. When that time comes, an individual recollects what exactly happened for someone, mediating the thought of giving that individual a chance. 

We measure what has occurred and whether it could be forgotten or forgiven, even perhaps both. With this in mind, a decision is made and there are three possible results: The individual is both forgiven and the (incident) is forgotten, the individual is just forgiven, or the individual is excused and given another chance. 

As for my personal experiences, there's times when certain individuals were given countless chances (I'm referring to over 9 chances), in this case that individual assured me that such incidents wouldn't happen again. 

She lied. 

In fact, she wasn't very much a kind friend or trustworthy in the end, full of lust and envy which just resulted in her self destruction. 

In another case there was a guy who disrespected me too much and even blamed me for an excess amount of occurrences, though it was beyond my control so I should have never been blamed anyways, it was just unfortunate events that revolved around him. 

At any rate, once there was a case of directly cursing at me and even borderline (physically) threatening me. However, neither of this phased me or even worried me in the end, there was a mass apology months following and I made a final exception. . One last chance. 

Since then, this individual hasn't made the same mistake again and to this day regrets having even made such events come to past, safe to say I very slowly began to reconnect since that time.  

There is another case, one that is currently undergoing it's way now, oddly enough these individual(s) never got a single extra chance. Though for fortunate reason, there wasn't any necessity for it because we've been on good standing. However, based on occurrences of this year, I've already made the decision that there's no reason to extend my efforts further. In this case I've committed a lot time, money and other factors in this committed friendship. 

But, minor context clues have already indicated that this isn't worth further investing the following into: time, money or even continued contact. 

This is a case where there doesn't seem to be an reason for a single, last chance. 

However, simply this occurrence was (slightly) unexpected, I expected such a case but didn't want to believe it would occur. 

I am granting one chance, a last chance that'll last till the end of this year for such to be resolved.

Truth be told, I'm already 100% assured of what the result will be, so forth if ever necessary, I'm only going to offer a single, last chance. 

Take me back to Japan. .
My massive 2-part Japan blog entry is currently a work in progress, by the end of this month (though I'm working on sooner) I'll publish both entries exclusively on this blog, stay tuned.

Additionally, if you haven't already, please follow me on my social media platforms for instant updates. For direct links, it's on the right side of my blog. 

Illusion

Alas, I was but an illusion and a fabric of your imagination, perhaps I wasn't even there before you to begin with.

In the United States, of course.

I'm an illusion that has just come before many in the nineteen years, am I not?

Ah, though perhaps that illusion comes to an end, I'll materialize as a (real) human for once, no?

August 3rd, 1:30 AM will begin the dismissal of an illusion in this particular country.

It's the moment that I step onto the plane and make my trip to Japan, though there will be a short layover in Taiwan.

I believe once I arrive in Japan, such an illusion shall diminish and I'll be there before others, as one human possibly could with one another.

This whole time I've been waiting and haven't felt completely overwhelmed with joy or positive emotions, rather I've felt 'excited' without the emotion present, though I'm certain it'll grasp me once I arrive in Japan.

Additionally, for those who are unaware, my 2nd product review blog has been blowing up with lovely visitors from around the world. I will be purchasing Japanese cosmetics and reviewing them on my blog too, please look forward to my next blog entry.

I will be creating a massive blog entry following my trip, I'll be gone for approximately 2 weeks as of this moment.

To visit my 2nd blog and view all my product reviews, click here.

Vanish

It's been quite a long, long time since I've updated my main blog. The rave these days has been all about my 2nd blog according to the visitors worldwide, for those who aren't already aware, that blog is primarily for product reviews. To visit my 2nd blog which has been becoming more populated by visitors throughout the world by the day, please click here. I do apologize if it sounds pretentious of me to mention this, however, I am in no way 'bragging' at all by saying the rave is about my 2nd blog. It's just shocking to me as my main blog was once populated by thousands and how the audience base has completely shifted.

It's also come to my attention that I should take the time to inform you about my YouTube channel which recently launched, those videos consist of anything that I wish to upload, though I have more product review videos than anything else currently up. You may visit my YouTube channel simply by clicking here. You are more than welcomed to subscribe for immediate updates, which I am highly encouraging to stay up to date.

Well, let's begin. .

I'm going to Japan for the first time in my life! August 3rd is my official flight date, I will be staying in Tokyo for the first few days and moving around Japan accordingly.  

I haven't been out the house for a long period of time in, well, ever? I've yet to transfer from community college, so I don't have much of an option but to continue living at home. Though at times it can be quite refreshing, a majority of the time I'm stuck in this catastrophic dilemma that I'll never be out the house. On that note, I'm quite merry that soon I'll be transferring out of community college in such a timely manner. For the most part, I'm transferring much earlier than about 95% of the students I have spoken with. These days, I hear most people don't transfer in two years at all, most dismiss the thought of transferring earlier than that too. From what I've heard around campus and just many others, most student's are expecting 3-5 years in community college before they've finished their G.E courses to qualify for transfer. 

3-5 years?

Truth be told, I'm supportive of that choice too, perhaps it isn't even a choice and just the fact that school is forcing us into a corner of debt and constant responsibilities to attend to? 

What a shame, really. . These students (Yes, I'm including any age student, doesn't matter how 'young' or 'old' a person is. .) are already struggling because of all the expenses they've got to pay off, though there's many possible reasons behind that. 

I am fortunate to have just enough to attend school at the very least, as well saved enough money through various jobs so that I could afford this trip, in actuality nobody has any right to shame anyone for staying in school more than 2 years. 

I want to be independent, of course, I don't want to attend to any of the responsibilities in order to have that trait. I won't deny that life is quite a drag at times, perhaps that's just my personality that has influenced my mindset and perception.

I'll be staying in Japan for more than two weeks!

I figured if this was a dream vacation come true, I would gladly pour in a substantial amount of my own money to enjoy this trip to the absolute fullest. Expenses aside, I really have nothing to complain about since this is entirely my choice to go, of course I will be accompanied with a friend who will be coming from Korea and meeting me at Narita International Airport in the afternoon of July 4th. 

I never actually considered the possibility of not going to Japan alone for my first visit, additionally my friend cannot speak Japanese so I will be translating as much as I can for her during this trip. I don't mind at all, though I'm curious to see if many Japan natives will openly speak English. 

At the end of the day, I can read anything on the internet saying one thing or another, I've been told my Japanese natives that "not many people will openly speak English even to non-natives" and I've also been told by a Japanese native that "if you cannot speak Japanese fluently, many will be more than happy to speak English with you." My experience with natives of Japan have been nothing short of unbelievably pleasant. I have never once had a bad outlook on Japan or the Japanese natives, regardless of anything that says otherwise online, which on that note is very rare for me to come across. 

Culture shock

There's a lot of people that I've spoken with who aren't very open to the idea of culture shock, if anything they oppose the thought of it ever happening.

I have to disagree entirely though, I am actually more than ready and waiting for a drastic culture shock the moment I arrive in Japan. 

I've been living in the United States since I was born, soon enough my birthday will be coming up and I'll have reached the age of adulthood, I'll be turning 二十歳 (hatachi) though unfortunately I'll be leaving Japan a week before my birthday. 

Lately I haven't thought of much else than Han (my cat), transferring out of community college and this trip to Japan. Of course, this isn't to say I haven't put much thought onto anything else, those are just the main three things that I've really thought about entirely lately. 

I'm saying Han too because his birthday is on August 1st, so I'll be here to celebrate with him and I know he'll appreciate that. To be honest, originally my flight was suppose to be on July 30th, though dates changed because of my friend's trip to Jeju in Korea. It actually worked out in my favor though, I wouldn't dare miss Han's birthday, especially when he's just turning 1 years old. 

What kind of father would I be? lol. 

As well for school, I'm actually quite tired of being in a community college and just want to transfer and live outside of this area for a few years. And to be honest, except for my major prep classes, I really don't find any other classes all that interesting. 

That leaves me with just this trip, honestly. . I'm just ready to explore a new country for once, especially one that is of my complete choosing. 

I don't have any worries in the slightest with the trip, though I've been pondering a dilemma that could arise during my stay in Japan, what if. . I don't want to come back? 

ha ha, well. . That's a 'joke' to the few I've told here in the United States. 

Though, in actuality, it is a genuine thought worth pondering into. . 

Which has very much lead me to think about studying abroad once I transfer out of Community College, though that's more money that I currently don't have, so. . I'll wait and see after this long awaited trip. 

upcoming massive blog entry

I have decided already that this trip will not only be for myself, however, it'll be for all of those who have desperately wished to ever visit Japan one day - though, not able to for a variety of possible reasons. 

I will be creating a massive blog entry for my 2 week+ stay in Japan, as well I (may) be vlogging and uploading those videos to my YouTube channel. 

This will leave me with a lot of content as a whole, assuming my storage doesn't get backed up immediately.  

final thoughts?

I'm happy to be back blogging on the main blog that started it all, though I've put in a mass amount of effort into my 2nd blog which has been quickly expanding, I will never forget about my main blog and will continue to bring all my visitors from around the world new content. 

Please look forward to my next blog entry, I'll be back with a new blog entry as soon as possible. 

Thank you so much for the continued support, 

Tao

High School

It was two years ago that I graduated with my high school class during April of 2014. It's been quite some time since then and there's been a lot that's happened since, as I mentioned on my previous blog entry: 只有你

Of course, that wasn't the entire scope of how time has changed, that blog entry in particular just focused on one individual. 

I actually don't miss High School all that much, however, I do recall having many responsibilities and appointed roles throughout the school. . Certainly, it was a very hectic time and I didn't try to make it appear so, what difference would it make to present my well being to other students? 

Truth be told, at least in my own (honest) personal experience, most students didn't actually happen to care for one another to a significant extent. It didn't matter from the beginning if someone was dealing with a hard time or just happened to run into a dilemma, hardships, etc. Of course, if someone presented this openly and the sheep flocked together and said, "Are you okay, do you need someone to talk to?" 

Such a phrase is such a misleading formation of words, there's many faults with this and I'll carefully dissect it and other areas of concern: 

• Misleading: The chances of this individual or group of people for that matter being "there" for you isn't likely at all. Of course, they will hear you because that's always all that individual can do in the moment, hear you out and try to interpret all that you're going through/areas of concern. Following that moment, they're either very likely to take the time to contemplate their options as a response or just make an 'automatic' response in a sense in order to make the effort to comfort or relate to you in the moment. In actuality the individual or group of people won't keep up the conversation for long, perhaps the 'bell' will ring for the next class at any rate and the 'saving grace' before you will go about their own life. . As that individual or group of people also have their own personal affairs that they will eventually have to attend to, nobody in High School is exempt from a constant act of adapting to their surroundings. 
• White lies: There are simply too many lies being told from student to student, although the likelihood of any individual acknowledging their own blatant lie is slim to none. There's just too much exaggeration in the statements made, "we'll be friends, forever." for example is practically the most notable lie being told, especially during your Senior year when you're a moment away from graduating and on your way to college. In actuality if you aren't already split by choices of where to attend college, you'll meet new individuals one way or another and one of you will begin to travel another path. One that doesn't include your "friend forever" to accompany you along the journey. The fact of the matter is one individual will eventually just go about their own life, without you, for a variety of possible reasons that could make sense or just be nonsensical. Just be wary of what people are saying to you, especially if you're that of a gentle and fragile nature, friendships simply don't last too long once everyone enters the "real world" or adulthood for short. 
• Friends: ah. . friends are quite nice to provide a mutual understanding of one another and where your relation lies, don't you think? Well, not always, especially the friends you encounter in High School. Don't expect too much even if you've got a lot of people surrounding you who have grown considerably close to you or acknowledge you on a daily basis by some form of encountering one another. Personally when I was in High School, especially during my Senior Year, I couldn't go around campus without someone who was: greeting me, intending to engage in a conversation or even intend to follow me around campus and introduce plans to hang out during a specified time. In retrospect, it doesn't matter from the starting point to the end point, chances are by the time you graduate you've already exhausted yourself to such an extent that can't be undone. Those individuals most likely won't appear before you following graduation unless you or the individual happen to consider one another considerably close, a huge majority will be focusing on another individual who they've considered much closer or a clique they've been together with since a specified period in High School. In actuality, as well my own personal experience, the whole process was quite underwhelming as I had just been more than ready to conclude my time in high school. There was very few friends that I made an effort to go meet up with for photos, one of which actually was in the next year's graduating class. If you're wondering, I did attend that individual's graduating ceremony the following year and took two polaroids, one for each of us. To this day, I am still considerably close to that individual and honestly couldn't more content with our friendship as whole. But, back to my graduation and the photos after it was concluded, there was many people who actually approached me for photos. I did end up being a part of many photo's because of this, although I hadn't planned on taking pictures with more than 2-3 people in actuality. To the present day, there's quite a bit of people who will message me or even approach me in public, although I don't make an effort with the exception of very few friendships. It's not that I'm intending to be rude or even decline the friendship of others, I simply (if you know me personally, you would know I always say this) don't play at friendship. I also don't acknowledge or spend the excess amount of time to attend to such people. In my experience, those who choose to play at friendship only to fulfill their desires are the absolute worst. Such a waste of time and indefinitely a shame when an individual is given an excessive amount of chances for their continuous chain of faults and lies. Be very wary of those you consider a friend in High School, as well come to an understanding of what the idea of a "friend" embodies in your own personal, unique opinion. Be vigilant of "friends" who'll take advantage of your humble, forgiving and overall selfless traits. If you aren't fond of someone for a legitimate reason, why continue you allowing them to sidetrack you from your own agenda? When it comes to "friends" I've got to emphasize one area of concern in particular that everyone can take note of. Again, this is from my personal experience so you're given choices to recycle my advice or not, do not continue a friendship if an individual has referenced you in any type of slander. As well, do not continue a friendship in which the individual continues to lie with any malicious intent, trust me on this one and save your time. 

Now if you've read all of what I've said up till now, don't fret, High School isn't all that bad. Of course it'll be a period when you'll experience and come to face with many conflicts and just have to continue adapting to make it to graduation. 

Allow yourself to enjoy the time spent, whether it's harnessing on mastering any of your hobbies, practicing an instrument or learning a language. The possibilities are endless, as well blogging is always an option, in which perhaps your personal experience can be displayed publicly to benefit others facing this period in their life. 

Ah, above all else do your homework whether you care for the subject or not, I personally didn't happen to have interest in any of my High School classes with the exception of a Piano class and Language class. The sooner, the better. . You'll have more to yourself, and specifically in High School you'll be physically and mentally in a much better state with more time to rest and calmly ponder your thoughts. Enjoy your time out with individuals you generally consider friends, don't continue accompanying an individual or group of people that you know won't be a part of your life by the end of High School. Save your money instead of going out for the purpose of being a part of a "group" which won't make a difference in any way shape or form. If anyone is bullying you, simply carry along with your day and completely disregard their opinion. In reality, if someone has to bully you then they're the one's who are suffering and looking for any means of coping with their inability to find resolve. Of course, there's limitations and areas of concern, never let it get to an extent where you're physically or mentally at any risk. 

Above all else, disregard everything and ask yourself, "is there anything right now that I want to change?" 

Of course, this could range from an endless amount of options: the friends you converse with or accompany, perhaps a very difficult class you would rather not take, a relationship, your appearance, etc. 

Never limit yourselves to the 'norm' in society, you're entitled to your own choices, success and faults of your own and how you choose to deal with it. There is nobody who should be making your choices or having complete influence of your actions or beliefs, embrace who you are stay true to yourself. I can assure you that by staying honest and following your heart, even if you're left with absolutely no friends or few friends, in the long run it'll bring you joy and prosperity. These days it's very easy to assume not having a friend is out of the norm, however, many very well just not be able to form any ideal friendships. 

Facts are not true. 

只有你

I haven't blogged in quite some time, these days it's a focus on my 2nd blog - product reviews.

In conjunction, my YouTube channel has also been launched and I've made a few videos, I do intend to make more along with many other product reviews. . In due time, this semester, along with balancing my work life is a bit much.

. . does it really ever change, few months I decide to quit work and relax, then back to another job and saving up money until I grow tired and follow the same path.

begin here to read: 只有你 

Ah, here I was thinking that time and distance would make a difference, only you, managed to follow through with such choices in life. 

I write this wholeheartedly with a very minor chance of you ever reading this entry, however, whether such an event occurs or happens not to. . It's fine, either way. 

From social media to in person conversations and an alarming amount of media attention, I only happened to acknowledge by chance. It wasn't that of good or bad, rather of acceptance that such a case took place. I've yet to see a reason to heavily cast judgement, at the end of the day, I chose to continue with my daily routine. Granted, I did decide to ask of your well being, time of absence wasn't a factor to say the very least. It wouldn't have made a different if it were three or ten years, all that mattered was checking on your current status. 

What came next. . It wasn't so much alarming as it was to be expected, "I'm fine. . who's this?" the response said. Although, what happened after the message sent hadn't made any difference, the end result was already achieved at the start of the response. 

I didn't dwell into the past too much in a gloom state, rather I was very grateful and felt such a warmth like none other these days. 

There was so much that I hadn't properly thanked you for, isn't there? Instead of writing how I feel about this matter in particular, I'm sure you - only you, already happen to know where my thoughts happen to lie. 

It wasn't too long until everything had been forgotten, although another special occasion had come forth, don't you think?

It was another year that fell on this particular day, it wasn't anything that was alarming and prepping was completed a bit earlier, as well on the day of. 

It wasn't anything that was particularly special or worth noting, however, above all else the thought put into it reigned supreme. 

This year, unlike others, I wasn't expecting any form of acknowledgement or a message. I was convinced it wasn't necessary, as well that time had played a crucial role in this passing year in particular. 

I was right to assume this result, the days followed and perhaps the future had been foreseen in a sense. 

They mocked you for your past occurrence, turned against you as well even labeled you with harsh titles. I didn't put an input, rather just continued my life, as I'm sure you did since it's not worth an initial thought on the matter. . 

If i may say so, how much time has passed in such a haste manner, really. To think, just a prior blink the situation was far more different, although it started from another area of concern. 

I believe the last time we happened to see one another was by chance only, I didn't have anything to say that my expression hadn't already made clear. Looking back on it, such a brief glance of eye contact and silence could of been interpreted in another way, one that doesn't present the truth in that moment. 

There are memories, aren't there? Such that I can't even completely comprehend, that of unorthodox moments from the usual high school student life. 

The white flower has already made it's exit, has it not? 

Between the two of us, we've already made our count of 'mistakes' and 'sins' since our days in high school. "Innocent" is indefinitely a word that can longer apply to us, as we should be more than aware of. 

Although it's quite nice, isn't it? To think a flower could appear so pure and lively, immersing all before it in such a manner. 

Take a moment to glance at yourself in full, we've already managed to step out of the 'norm' with our body alterations, have we not?

But, you know, it doesn't matter in the slightest. .

It's still there before me, in fact my reflection is simply that of which has 'exited' 

In retrospect, 只有你 may very well not come across this and we'll both continue our daily lives. 

"I hope you're doing well" hadn't crossed my mind since that particular day, last month.

As I once said before, I have no interest in playing at 'friendship'

to you and 只有你, 

goodbye. 

near future

. . Once again, I've failed to update on my blog as frequently, don't I always end up writing another text entry?

Ah, really. . When will I begin to learn, without using the excuse of school and other factors that shouldn't be displayed. 

The time is 01:39 and I've somehow managed to pass the point of 'no return' 

. . In this case, I've lost the will to even hope for any rest tonight. I've got class tomorrow though, in all honesty there's not a whole lot to be excited for. 

I had a four day weekend since last week too, I told myself. . "Ah, Tao. . You really need to finish homework early, then study and somewhere in between enjoy just a bit of the time."

I decided to lay back and enjoy the flow, although without responsibilities in mind, not money. . not schoolwork, nothing that really relates to the real world. . at least, reality before me. 

I suppose, it's safe to say it wasn't so bad, after all. 

Although the longer that I'm here, I cannot help but wonder how much longer it'll be until I'm on my way out. I'm not home now either, I'm staying at my cousin's apartment for the night because school tomorrow, it's much closer and saves me the traffic too. I also enjoy the comfort and peace, in many cases, I can't help but enjoy the simplistic room over the one back at home. 

The window is open too and I believe there's little to no chance of a bug getting inside, the screen doesn't have any holes like the one back home. The fresh air is quite nice, I can breathe and perhaps that's more than enough.

It's only 01:45 and somehow I can feel the dullness of my eyes starting to grow tired, my body is constantly telling me things and I've continued to ignore it time and time again. I wonder, why would any individual to that? 秘密, eh? 

I'm surrounded by people here, although I really don't mind this gravity of solitude. 

Come to think of it, just wondering about the near future is a bit addicting. 

I choose not to think of anything else in the moment, perhaps a mystery is worth looking forward to, don't you think? I could be wrong about that though, it could be interpreted in any context, good and bad is possible. 

Hmm. . Maybe college isn't a huge majority of wasted time in classes that don't really peak the interest of a young adult, lol. 

Okay, but all jokes aside, it's the way of the system and a means of getting "ahead in life" 

The new year has only just started, I'll make sure to update much more frequently too

本当にごめんなさい. . I'll hope to find a resolve in my inability to follow through with my statements, although if by some chance that isn't the case. . Again, 本当にごめんなさい . .

Thank you for the continued support, between my main blog and my 2nd blog (taohyun-review.blogspot.com) I've been receiving quite a mass of new visitors. . From all over the globe, it's surreal to say the least. 

I hope soon enough, I'll be able to expand the content that I offer in my blog. I won't go too much into detail, since I've mentioned it before in another blog entry. Let's hope that day comes soon, certainly before the following new year.  

Ah, I've launched my YouTube Channel, click here - if you would like to check that out. 

If you don't follow me on instagram, you likely haven't seen my latest entry. . 

In that case. . Happy Lunar New Year! 

恭禧发财

Secret

. . the fifth day of the new year, I accidentally slept in for the entirety of the day, only to awake and get dressed up around 17:30. I was wearing my new Fitbit that I received during Christmas, which keeps track of how much I slept, after checking the app it said a total of over 11 hours. .

I took a cab to the Starbucks in my city that's on the other side from where I live, since this is the only one around here that doesn't close until 22:00. 

The weather has been very cold lately, as well it's been raining on and off today, there are many people driving and the city doesn't even resemble it's usual self. All the lights and the dreary weather, along with the Christmas tree still at my place has created quite a nice ambiance. It reminds me of the ride back from San Francisco, although not nearly the same. There are for more many drivers, far too many brightly lit lights to keep track of, it's a much better atmosphere all around. 

Ah. . really, it reminds me of the fact that I've only got one more year until I'm out of this area. It feels quite surreal that I'm going to have to apply once more to the colleges of my choice, although I only have one in mind. I'm quite certain that I'll be accepted too, despite the lack of a 4.0 GPA. 

How do i feel towards GPA, when someone asks me? Well, let me put it this, I'm currently listening to Got7' - If You Do. . 

Midway into the song, the lyrics state, "I don't care, just do whatever you want. It doesn't matter to me, I'll just go to sleep." 

The songs continues with . .

"Everyday. . Every night. . Feel like a fool. . You gotta know." 

At this moment, this couldn't describe my take on attending community college and GPA any better. There's a part of me that is completely aware of the fact that attending college is necessary, if not for this, why would I have bothered to attend K-12? 

All those late nights in high school too, granted it was my own fault for procrastinating so much. I can't really say all those nights studying, as I never really bothered to study with any subject aside from language. Meeting the basic requirements, in terms of classes and receiving at least a B or so isn't anything that I need to study over. 

I have to admit in my Fall 2015 semester, I procrastinated far too much, I was working nearly 40 hours a week and could barely find time to rest a bit. Overworked, certainly is the only word that can explain the fall semester, I even decided to quit my job around the end of the semester. 

Ah, I've got to eventually begin searching for a suitable job too. I actually don't really need the money to pay off monthly expenses, I've saved enough to cover that for about a year or so. However, if you aren't making money, you're most likely losing money. In this case, I don't mind losing a bit of money if that allows me time to study (major prep) until the time of transfer. It's quite an investment to study my major ahead of time, I would prefer not to be behind when I transfer to university. At the rate I'm currently going at, I shouldn't be behind by the time of transfer, I'll probably be ahead of those who didn't bother to sign up for major prep classes in cc. 

On another note, I'm patiently waiting for Lunar New Year, I also have good news in regards to LNY. Just like last year, I'm more than likely going to make a blog entry for LNY this year! 

If you haven't read my Lunar New Year 2015 blog entry and would like to, click here.

I was suppose to travel to New York around the Christmas time, although I decided not to do because I had spent too much of money for future investment. It certainly works and I'll be making more money then I started off with, likely a couple hundred dollars, the downfall in this is the wait time for potential buyers. 

On that note, I've always wanted to travel to China, Japan, as well Korea more than anyone could imagine. . Seriously, I'm sure many of you reading could 'feel me' as the adolescents say, in regards to the notion of traveling outside the country. 

All in due time though, patience is key when it comes to achieving such a colossal dream. The necessary steps before achieving those dreams will be quite a bit of time consumption, although more than necessary. 

I've got my dreams and aspirations just as any other person, in the meantime though, I've got to put in my best effort in the necessary fields. 

Let's do our best this year, I personally wish you all the absolute best in all your future endeavors.

With that in mind, I've also launched my YouTube channel and my first two videos are up now, check that out below.

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#2015WrapUp

Ah. . . Where do i even begin?

2015 has been so, so much. .

Through the good and bad, I've learned quite a bit, I'm certainly ecstatic for all that the new year will bring. . 

In 2015, I've decided to cut ties with a few "friends" and never looked back. I actually wrote quite a bit and went into detail about this, although as I was typing it, I chose to delete it since it wasn't worth having anyone read. 

In short, they just aren't relevant enough to be writing about in the year of 2016, apologies. 

I've also dealt with quite a series of unfortunate events, too much work hours. . moving out of my mother's house for a bit, car accident (someone backing up into me), etc. 

After finishing the fall semester, I was finally able to breathe a little bit. I hardly had anytime for myself, to even grasp my thoughts and take care of myself. Soon after, I decided to quit at my previous workplace, as it just wasn't a suitable fit for me anymore. I was overworked, far too overworked than ever before, it was only a natural solution for me. 

The countdown to Christmas was very memorable as well, I can easily recall listening to Christmas tunes and resting on the couch with Han. To clarify, Han is the kitten that I adopted midway into the fall semester. More than a kitten, I consider him my baby boy and have enjoyed the remainder of 2015 with him accompanying me.

There were plenty of times I found myself saying, "this is such a drag" in 2015, however, there were also many moments that I am quite grateful for. . 

I am very grateful for the close friends that I have, as well the time we've spent together and the memories that were made. Honestly, they say that "family comes first" as if it isn't possible for a friend to be considered family. I beg to differ wholeheartedly, although it may be unbelievably rare for some. . I assure you, it's more than possible. 

I could go on and on, although. . I'll save you that much and just blatantly state this. .

I am very grateful for all the continued support that I've received this year as a blogger. I will not allow any of it to be in vain and I'll strive to be the best blogger that I can possibly be. 

To all those who've supported me throughout the year. . Thank you, one couldn't possibly imagine the gravity of my gratitude towards all of you.